Hi Lou,
Wash your face and stop dropping crap all over your floor, oh and stop thinking that the world owes you a living and actually do something to help yourself, like you know, storing all your free s properly and not just having it dumped ungratefully on the manky floor.
Oh and if you really want to improve your life, stop all contact with the life drain you call a boyfriend.
Use the support available at your drug recovery clinic to learn from your past mistakes and take influence from people that have actually stopped taking class A drugs and turned their lives round rather than just playing at it like you are.