Sabrina you're one to talk when there are many, many people who said you were a heavy drinker and drug user when you were pregnant. Is that why when you get really angry, you let yourself slip and blame yourself for Jamie?
You were reasonably young and healthy back then (a lot of women much older go to full term with healthy babies), so I think I'll go with the rumors and say they are true and you caused it.
Maybe all the drug use in the past has permanently affected your brain.
PS you're taking street drugs everyday, just because you can also get them on "subscription" doesn't make you any less of an addict.
MIC DROP