Nostalgia's a hell of a thing. Also so is the trauma of losing friends, and I can't imagine if someone blamed me for the death of a friend who I lost in similar circumstances.
I also, to an extent, get posting the messages she sent you. Some of it is very fing funny. And you were egged on. But if you want to support her - it's probably time to stop with that s. Can't play both sides and feel good about it.
Maybe in a couple of years a recovered Lou could post stories about it - being an open book, "look at how bad I was, I can't believe where I am now". I'd genuinely love to see it.
But I doubt it.
You see this sort of does encapsulate it.
I'm still absolutely beyond furious about it.
Almost irreparably furious about her posting that it's basically my fault about the one she blamed me for.
And I'm actually tearing up now with literal fing Lou level crocodile tears (but ones that actually flow) thinking about the one that they discovered.
I still message him
I message him all the time.
I actually am going to do off now.
I don't think I'll ever be able to explain myself well enough to convince the mob of room temp IQ reactionaries what it feels like to have ties to somebody who you truly care about but also sincerely despise.
Ste discovered this guy, she posted bragging about it.
She posted bragging that She discovered him then she used him for sympathy.
Now you're fing acting like I'm a t because I'm capable of showing somebody I hate so fing deeply a bit of kindness because I think she's still human?
You're sick.
I tried. I am even trying to help her after absolutely everything she's done.
She's calling it revenge porn lmfao, call the police fool, I reposted a repost of something she sent to somebody else and it wasn't even nude.
I imagine anybody who saw it will back me up.
I tried to be good for five minutes.
It backfired, I regret it.
She didn't deserve the kindness.
I knew that before I even tried though so it's really me who was the fool.