*hoping I don't regret posting this*
I missed the lives but caught up on Noysogreys (God's work BTW, thank you, hope doggie is ok) and I have to vent somewhere so apologies.
For starters, I'm not the least bit surprised that she's been caught and also that's she's not clean. I have been on her lives and been supportive when she appears to be doing better, but I'm no fool and never fell for her stories. People might think I'm a kiss arse, but I'm far from it and you can't kid a kidder.
I've tried to help Lous over the years & offer help and support via DM. Because unlike those fing idiots on her lives, I do know what addiction is and how hard it is, yet she'll listen to those tossers rather than someone with experience. ITS ALL FOR THE SYMPATHY!
So here's where I could get hate by you nasty twolls
17 years ago, I lost my daughter, she died when she was 2 (not going into details, but her life was hard) after this I fell into the wrong crowds and I ended up addicted to heroin, crack, zopiclone, valium and tamezepam. No excuse for taking drugs, i hold my hands up. Whilst someone offered them to me and said they'd make me feel better, I ACCEPT FULLY THAT I MADE THE STUPID CHOICE TO USE. NO ONE FORCED ME, NO ONE PINNED ME DOWN.
My addiction naturally got worse, needing more and more to find that buzz or hit. KEEP IN MIND, I WAS STILL WORKING AT THE TIME, NO SPONGING FROM THE GOVERNMENT OR COMMITTING CRIMES. But eventually money was getting tight due to spending on drugs and I lost my flat. I ended up sofa surfing and a mate gave me a room in a flat. Waking up every morning feeling sick, awful gut pains, body aching and sick of being at rock bottom, I'd had enough. I wanted to change so went to the drug clinic & my doctors.
I was put on subutex first and they didn't work for me, I fed up and used again. However, I wanted to change so went to Dr again and was put on methadone, now I was only on 50ml, yet I had quite the addiction, so it makes me wonder just how much Lou was using to be on 100ml.
I'd been on methadone for about 3 months and found out I was pregnant. Now I knew nothing would let me harm a child, I asked my doctor to start reducing my methadone, they agreed. Started dropping 5ml at a time. Because of my drug past, social services were involved and it was horrible. But I was going to do all I could for my baby.
I had hair strand tests, counselling and even a psych evaluation. I did regular drug tests and I got results each time. I had to jump through hoops but did what was necessary. Unlike Lou, my child was all that mattered. In the end I actually cut myself off methadone and was proud as punch when I handed back over 200ml to my doc (I was on weekly methodone pick up as I was working)
Very long story short (sorry) social services stayed in contact for about a year, baby was healthy and not addicted to any substances. I still had to prove myself, attend counselling and take drug tests. I even rejected pain relief whilst in and after labour because I didn't want anything bad in my system.
LOU SAYS ITS HER MENTAL HEALTH AND THATS WHY SHE REPLAPSED, IF SHE WENT TO THE DOCTOR AND WAS HONEST THEY WOULD HELP.
HER KIDS DONT MEAN EVERYTHING TO HER BECAUSE SHE WONT FIGHT FOR THEM YET SHE'LL FIGHT TO STAY ON TIK TOK
THE TROLLS EXCUSE IS BOLLOCKS, EITHER REMOVE YOURSELF OR PROVE YOURSELF. IF ANYTHING IT SHOULD MOTIVATE HER, SOFT APPROACH DOESNT WORK.
STE IS A LARGE PART OF THE PROBLEM BUT NOT FULLY, SHE NEEDS TO LEAVE HIM, NOT RELY ON HIM AND KEEP AWAY FROM ANYONE DOING DRUGS.
LASTLY SHE NEEDS TO TAKE ACCOUNTABILITY, STOP LYING, STOP BEGGING, STOP BLAMING EVERYONE ELSE AND GROW THE do UP!
SHE WONT CHANGE UNTIL SHE WANTS TO AND CLEARLY SHE DOESNT
I've been clean almost 16 years, no pills, no alcohol, nothing. Never felt the urge to relapse because every time I look at my child, I know I'd never want to hurt him. I hate when she's crying saying it's not fair, I want to see my kids. If that were true she'd get off her backside and do something about it.
SORRY, LONG POST, BUT ITS PISSED ME OFF PLAYING MH CARD AND BLAMING EVERYONE ELSE, PLUS HAVING PEOPLE FEELING SORRY FOR HER AND BELIEVING THE LIES.
She boils my piss with her endless excuses. I don't even think she could be arsed with the effort of having her children anymore. She can't be bothered to do the most basic of tasks, how could she cope with three kids.
xx