Don't you just love meetings...
Thanks for thinking of me. I have been working but prob been on my phone too much today. I went to sleep at 06:30 so had less than 2 hours sleep so admittedly grumpy.
Rosie just put into the perfect words on what my thoughts are/were.
See now that I'm feeling insecure, triggered and sty, so I don't feel liked... God am i at school again!
I know I don't have to be liked by all anyway but these events don't disappear from mine or anyone else's minds easily. I feel hurt by some of the initial responses to my post and I don't feel it was necessary at that moment in time. Not everyone even knew which TT post I was referring to (prob my fault for not SS that too) so to minimise my feelings and fears by saying everyone has been targeted..or can't see what the issue was etc or tell me I shouldn't have posted personal stuff etc etc felt unkind. But I'm the baddie for equally having my say??
We've ALL been there for each other and had backs etc etc...that didn't feel like my reality last night. When u feel s and say u feel s...thats when u see the reality of your worth to some. It feels unbalanced and unfair (child again..
but this is where it all stems from..but apparently all made up...) but yet others are suddenly the victims and did nothing wrong and I am the one "bang out of order"?! do staying around for that when I had already apologised. Deflection much?
No one is here to be patronised or belittled or told off by no one. I once repeated a word I shudnt have. I was mortified..apologised and moved on. Some others aren't so gracious and I'm not here for that..sorry...no one is.
The other posts that person posted on TT...obv I wasn't happy about..we all know the one I was upset about and why. If somebody can't have empathy and understanding for that and instead just be insensitive or passive aggressive they arent for me.
Prob going to get in trouble again for my thoughts and words. No one has to agree or like other's post's..remember.....owe me the same courtesy...
Thanks twinnie, love ya too
xx
Omg...I can imagine what that was like coming home to
feel bad for you as I know what a grim task it is. Not their fault but in your head..u are like could u have done it in a hard floored room. Bless him. Hope he's OK and drinking plenty.
I think you and me and a few others are on the same wavelength. It's why we relate so much to past and present struggles and upset. It feels good being around like-minded people who get it.
I think you are right about seeing everyone as friends. Some may mock or reject that notion or feeling, but we feel what we feel. Some of us have deeper connections than others or not as deep as we think in some cases.
You always have my back and are there for me. You go over and above with support..understanding and empathy. Your kindness and genuiness shines through clearly twinnie
I don't wsnt to feel a burden...never have. Just messed up in many ways and s going on but I think and hope u and some others see the good in me. I believe you do. xx
Ironic really...I do question myself actually...being on the other thread and partaking...is that a good person?? She just frustrates the hell out of me and triggers me also. Lying, manipulation, control, gaslighting and the lack of acknowledgement in her over herself, her family, relationships and other ppl are unpleasant and unlikeable traits. Are we all wrong?? More and more ppl are seeing it.
I actually didnt even know that username on TT existed until I saw someone on other thread mention it. Horrified as usual at the SS's but when I looked back at the first one about me...i was like wtf have I dkne in particular different to anyone else?!
Not nice for anyone..it's vile but to go out of their way regarding 'facts' about me and my family is another level. So when i felt it was minimised and told everyone has had it, that didn't feel supportive...the opposite.
I hate the way the poster on TT insinuates I, you or anyone has been untruthful about pasts and trauma is awful. Like i wish it was different love..but it isn't!
No where have I wished her to unalive herself or even thought it. Thats the truth so that's so wrong to say otherwise. I haven't personally seen anyone else imply that either.
Menopausal..yes
Train wreck....yes
Overthinker..yes
All that was factually correct but to use it to mock and actually be a bully themselves...ok..
Would love to know what I have done in particular to get those posts. Not saying anyone else would deserve it either but like u acknowledged, unlike others, the posts stood out from the others, particularly the one in question.
Thank you again for always being there. I appreciate it. And it doesn't mean that can't hear truths etc..just a time and a place sometimes!
That made me laugh...sorry twinnies bf 🫣
xxx
I am very stubborn so if someone didn't get back to me for a week and gave the same answer your sister did i would probably do the same 
childish some might say
your friends sound lovely and know you well by the sounds of it.
my boy goes away with his dad next week which I use to dread, but now use the time to get jobs done. I am dreading next year though when he turns 18 and wants to go away with the lads 
) or even my house account on insta. Let me think. I can just tell you are upset by it all and I understand why. I do truly believe that that freak's account is never likely to reach your daughter but I still understand how it's made you feel. 
