I DEFINITELY haven't been there for her at all, she didn't deserve me being there.A real friend you are not thank you for saying it. You sound like you just want to be able to say and I was there for you the whole time just because you were friends when you were younger. That's not how friendship works. If I was in a situation where I was putting my life back together after being rock bottom I wouldn't want you to be in it at all. You'd probably turn on her as soon as she slipped up again.
She did say she was there for me though, in fact she said she was the only one who was there.
(Obviously a lie).
The history between us is long and complex.
I will always have love for my childhood friend, but if you'll forgive me for using a nerdy reference it's sort of like how anakin died and became Darth Vader.
The friend once had is probably gone but I'm huffing pure hopium thinking that she's in there somewhere.
I know it's a fool's errand to try to get her to sort it out... But with the amount of second chances I've been given I would be the worst kind of hypocritical scum on the planet to not even entertain the idea.
I want to believe she can come back... I know it isn't going to happen, it would just make me happy if it did.
I wish I could appeal to the old friend there is still there somewhere... But she does feel like she's lost.
Yes I was instrumental in passing evidence to have custody passed to the father... But in her current state she can not care for them.
It doesn't mean I don't still care for her... It's just for their, and her, own good.
You guys can s talk and gossip all you like and derive sadistic entertainment from it, I'll join in, it's quite funny....
But to judge me because I still have hope she can come back?
I don't understand why?
Can anybody who can see both sides, or even just the other side, please explain to me why I'm getting this wrong or where I've been misunderstood?