Jodie, I just want to say SH and S are endings, before solutions can be found. Do you use any kind of distraction techniques? Like a rubber band to flick against your skin, or holding an ice cube tightly when you feel the urge to hurt yourself? Are you being “safe” when you SH? By making sure the things you use are clean, having a small first aid kit ready “just in case” plasters, antiseptic, would closure strips? To use while trying to get medical help.
Have you thought about putting together a self soothing box, full of things to distract you? Colouring book and pencils, bubbles to blow, elasticity bands for your wrists, photos of times you really enjoyed, list of inspirational quotes or song lyrics that you find moving, the list is endless as it’s about you and things you enjoyed at one point. Keep a notebook in there and a pen, to write your emotions in at the time you’re feeling them. So many things you can do to distract x
On a side note, SH is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of, but equally you need to be sensitive when discussing it openly, as not everyone can talk about it as readily as you seem to. Just try to read the room, and try not to weaponise it by including it in conversations where you’re defending yourself, that’s why people feel you are using it against them. Be more aware of when you’re saying these things, and who you’re saying them to, as not every stranger on the internet has the ability or desire to have this type of conversation.
Lastly PLEASE get expert MH support, please ring your GP and arrange to be put on the counselling list. It seems you’ve a lot to say and feel you aren’t being heard anywhere else.
Try to just be you, put your medical issues in a mental box and try to talk about you, not identify yourself as a list of conditions. Good luck.
Have you thought about putting together a self soothing box, full of things to distract you? Colouring book and pencils, bubbles to blow, elasticity bands for your wrists, photos of times you really enjoyed, list of inspirational quotes or song lyrics that you find moving, the list is endless as it’s about you and things you enjoyed at one point. Keep a notebook in there and a pen, to write your emotions in at the time you’re feeling them. So many things you can do to distract x
On a side note, SH is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of, but equally you need to be sensitive when discussing it openly, as not everyone can talk about it as readily as you seem to. Just try to read the room, and try not to weaponise it by including it in conversations where you’re defending yourself, that’s why people feel you are using it against them. Be more aware of when you’re saying these things, and who you’re saying them to, as not every stranger on the internet has the ability or desire to have this type of conversation.
Lastly PLEASE get expert MH support, please ring your GP and arrange to be put on the counselling list. It seems you’ve a lot to say and feel you aren’t being heard anywhere else.
Try to just be you, put your medical issues in a mental box and try to talk about you, not identify yourself as a list of conditions. Good luck.
