well that was alot of info to take in, i feel like monicas mam off friends
apoligies if this isnt in actual order of events
listen as a parent of 2 young children the mention of clares law should be enough make you grab your kids and run and not look back!
this whole sex worker thing would actually be ok if you had an end game and were working and saving and striving to give your kids a better life, you know so in 10 years time when they are getting tortured about what you've done they could turn round and say well actually, our mam did that and then we moved away and now we have security, a really nice house, nice car, money in the bank and we want for nothing and she did it all for us to have a better life? ( ranting on a story that this is your plan in a few days because you've read this isnt guna make it true or change the reality for the kids so please just dont )
also at this point im pretty certain that the blackeye is just not the worst thing in the grand scheme of things. fully aware that this will be an unpopular opinion and i DO NOT condone hitting a child or anyone for that matter, but kids forget and bruises heal and if shes lucky she might get an apology. lets be honest in the grand scheme of things its the mental torture hurts and has more dire consequences. the mind doesnt heal like a bruise or broken bone.
shes spent years pushing people away, alienating family, not being able to keep a friend all while letting the kids witness it from a very young age, its brainwashing and manipulation at the highest standard.
the common denominator is YOU, deal with your trauma or burry it and focus on making sure you dont project your trauma onto them! just cos no one protected you doesnt mean you cant protect them, break the cycle, let people love them, dont deprive them of love people want to give them because your resentful
behavior breeds behavior and unless your on your way to reaching savings of 100 grand in the next couple of years to get your kids away from the life of torment and abuse your creating for them we can only hope they see you as an example of what not to be and that would be a blessing no amount of money could buy for them two innocent kids
everyone on the planet has a sad story to tell, everyone on the planet has the right to mess there own life up, it doesnt give you the right to be a sty person, and what no one has the right to do is bring innocent little humans into the world and not do everything they can to give them a good life filled and love happiness and and protect them at all god damn costs!