You sound exactly like I was, wearing clothes much bigger than you needed and even still not being able to eat on camera. I'm glad you are In recovery now. well done luv it's such a hard thing to overcome and even then it's still always in the back of your mind. It annoys me no end that she makes a mockery of it. Take care xxSilent reader here the eating disorder thing really gets to me. I've been recovered from anorexia for over 10 year, it never leaves you!! To this day its still there, yes i can control it better but the slightest bit of stress, the weight falls off me. From visiting Cornhill eating disorder clinic twice a week for years to now being a healthy size 10. Two blessed kids, raised by myself (yes you heard it Vav) bossing single working mum life with a real job!! I could never eat in front of a camera like you do, or wear clothes half my size. I always wear stuff bigger to hide what i have. You are making a total mockery of it all!! Rant over back to reading