In reality, if you are really bad you need a welfare check. But saying your struggling and getting yourself involved with the wrong people- you aren't helping yourself and you can't play innocent
I do genuinely don’t mean for this to come across blunt or sty so apologies if it does man.
At first I genuinely did genuinely thought you had been apart of the group that had been trolling me before all this on here. Seeing how you were was able to help me see who was regular etc so now I know you aren’t not apart of that other situation - if you get me? This has been going on like 3 months now
I had people who heard the state i was in outside of the app/cc and didn’t care, still went for me whilst I was having a breakdown.
The only thing that’s helped me thought the last few months is just being on the app and trying to get my confidence and happiness back. That’s all I wanted to do until people didn’t like seeing me laughing again. If me going on silly lil lives and having a laugh is helping distract me from how alone I feel then does it actually hurt anyone?
(Apposed to some off the absolute nonsense that’s gone on with creators in lives)
I’m not earning money by pretending I’m ill. I’m just trying to love myself despite the circumstances I’m under and trying to speak confidently about my conditions. If people find I’m trauma dumpy that’s ok they don’t have to follow me you know?
My family are now well aware of the trolling as well as other things as of the weekend. They’re aware of the suicidal thoughts and aware that I’m self harming again but I don’t think it’s fair to judge or push anyone into getting help or how they see things that are helping them.
Things are being done but this doesn’t help. I’m not saying I’m innocent or perfect I’m certainly far from. I don’t always make the best decisions but literally some of the stuff in here has been absolutely horrible for me and no one should have to post medical stuff I feel so humiliated
I’m happy to show people I think are
safe how the extent of how things have been if they are still in doubt. But please respect me in that I feel absolutely small and fragile about posting what I have so far and took the advice of others to stop.
So I’m happy to send them on twitter / insta if it makes people feel better tbh I just want no more posted on here because it’s a horrible feeling