Delusive angie @delusive_angie10

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Absolutely this 🩵

Trigger warning: relevant SH experience 🙏🏼

As someone nearly 3 years in recovery and 18 years addicted to self harm, I can count on one finger the number of times I “planned” it (too risky to explain, don’t want to upset anyone). All other times were sadly impulsive, frenzied and out of control. That doesn’t mean it’s the same for everyone luvs of course but true for a lot unfortunately. For the people who would plan, it was more so part of their routine as a coping mechanism.

In cases of postponing a trigger reaction (akin to Ang’s threat) and planning to self harm at a later point, it would often be as soon as privacy was available.

Source: I’ve done a lot of volunteer counselling and have a lot of hands on (haha let me joke 😭) experience🎗️

Please look after yourselves luvs 🩵
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Alicia

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My evil side does have to admit I WAS LOVING THE CULT TRIGGERED! I just hated it when I saw the comments that you were crawling back to her for clout. I know it shouldn't bother me but a piece of my tiny black heart does. Protect yourself and do that dirt b!

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That’s just bitter people in the comments. I was loving life because my name is blocked in the live so nobody could talk s about me 😂😂
 
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But does the opinion of some woman in her bedroom change the fact that my mum was the amazing woman she was? No. I’m not gonna sit and stew on stuff everyday that strangers on the internet have said. It’s not healthy for me. It’s literally circles continuously, nobody has apologised, nobody has formed friendships. Nothing is forgiven or forgotten but in the grand scheme of things, as I going to let Angela’s words affect me forever? No.
I understand that hun, I lost my dad in April and its still raw. If anyone spoke badly of my dad whether i knew them or not, i just couldn't forgive them. You're a better person than me to oversee that and definitely stronger, my hat goes off to you (if thats the saying) xx
 
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From one stranger to another I'm proud of you 🩵 and I'm proud of each person that battles their demons daily and those struggles still and fights those urges off 🩵🩵
That really does mean a lot my luv, thank you 🙇🏻‍♀️🩵 I couldn’t agree more, I am absolutely not alone in struggling with this addiction and all the other struggles and coping methods - all of which are valid ❤️‍🩹
 

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I understand that hun, I lost my dad in April and its still raw. If anyone spoke badly of my dad whether i knew them or not, i just couldn't forgive them. You're a better person than me to oversee that and definitely stronger, my hat goes off to you (if thats the saying) xx
Yeah it was awful at the time, it triggers you massively because u never expect someone to speak on them like that. But you have to take back control of your own feelings. Sorry for your loss, it’s the worst feeling 🤍
 
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Yeah it was awful at the time, it triggers you massively because u never expect someone to speak on them like that. But you have to take back control of your own feelings. Sorry for your loss, it’s the worst feeling 🤍
you are completely right! Thank you for replying the way you did as it allows me to see it in a different perspective x
 
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we love you!! You've come so far. I've been in that dark place, you don't tell people that you're going to do it. I saw a video of Elphaba having an argument with a girl and her response "im going to my room to xxx myself " its all for attention and in my opinion mocking people who actually suffer with this daily. I speak on myself only but i would never admit to anyone when i went through it. I would never dream of telling anyone and it most certainly wasnt planned.
Welcome ❤️‍🩹 thank you luv, that’s so thoughtful of you to say 🥲 you truly don’t, you’re absolutely right. It’s something that almost always exists as a secret 💔

I was the same as yourself and very clandestine. Of course there are those that struggle differently and they’re just as valid. Even to the extent of seeking attention, as more often than not they’re seeking professional support and validation. Those that do that however, never do it in a mocking way, unlike those we often see displaying it online 😣