Bless you bothI feel for you because its not nice and when you're so young and all you want to do is make your parents proud of you, yet one of those parents would only show you a fraction of love and a tiny bit of attention if you kicked someone's head in, and if you didn't they were either violent towards you or you were made to feel a worthless nobody. (Yet my dad was the complete opposite)
Having a dysfunctional childhood affects you for many years.